why ...

Have you ever been in this situation ... on a friday evening you return to your apartment, tired from work but elated at times as you did a good job... again .. you walk upto your first floor apartments window and turn the blinds, the room is filled with the lights up on the street.. you didnt care to switch on the light.. you just felt to absorb the dark quietness the room has to offer unlike the clamour in the meeting room.. you separate the blinds a bit with your fore finger and thumb and peek out as if you have been hiding..... were you .. ? You feel rested as cars rush on with their passengers.. some returning home... some going to work their shifts... You ponder and you ask... Why.. why do i feel that something is missing... why is it that i am not smiling at myself.... why do i have a smirk to offer when people wish me .. Hi..!!. Why dont i have the enthusiasm that i used to , why am i getting dumber, why am i becoming risk averse as i am increasing in age, why .... and why dont i finish that book "First Things First" , time to close the blinds and switch open the switch...................... Need to focus on things important in life.. and not those which are urgent....